Today, Sunday, I was up at 6:45 AM. Wide awake, no alarm, no sudden noise to wake me...just awake and ready to start the day. I guess when you have a  routine for long enough it even effects your weekend. It's started a pretty productive Sunday thus far. Cleaning mostly. I must get my life in order. I must simplify my things. The clutter is wearing on my nerves and causing me to be a little crazy (crazier than usual, anyways). My room, 2 years later, is finally coming together. Still slowly, and I’m not in love with it quite yet...and maybe I never will be, unless I paint it. Painting is not going to happen for the next few months so I have embraced the warm, soothing color of brown. But the point is, I'm simplying and it is giving me peace and making me less anxious.


I still need curtains and a rug in my room. These will be things that I search for until I find exactly what I want. I'm not rushing it. And in truth, I would much rather buy a new pair of jeans and shoes before I even considered curtains in my room. My wardrobe will never be what I want it to be, but it's getting somewhere closer. Except my shoe collection, that needs serious work. Like $500 worth of work. So, after I buy a new pair of designer jeans and about 2 more pairs of shoes, then I will invest in curtains and a rug. Until then, I'm good with where my room is. Good, not happy.

Next to update? The music collection. There is so much music everywhere. Next weekend at Jazz Fest (with A-C. and hopefully Lauren) will undoubtedly jump start this process. Lauren, you should know this blog has been written while listening to your playlist. And, well almost all of the songs will be added to my iPod as soon as time permits.

Ashley, my little sister, set a date for her wedding. It will be January 8, 2011. Two weeks after Christmas and about 8 weeks after Aprel, our older sister and the Matron of Honor, births her 4th child. Which reminds me, when I begin to plan my wedding please remind me that its a joyous occasion and as ready as I will be to have my day it requires a certain amount of time from others and I must remember to consider them in my planning. It's not just about me; it's about him and our families celebrating our unity. Not rushing, for any reason. It will be beautiful, and wedding planning is always exciting, so here goes.

Okay, yard work and running is on the agenda for the rest of the morning before my honey comes over.

With love.

Realizing what the problem is more than the first step to solving it.


This week has been a serious improvement from last. Last week I was in a funk. So much of a funk that I actually remember what the funk felt like. It felt heavy and drained. The worst part was how I projected it on people (and by people, I mean David). Being a complainer was never my intention; but sometimes when things get so built up it becomes part of you instead of just being a way you feel.

I have reinstated positive thinking.
And humor.
And girl time.
And shopping.
And creative time.
And exercise.

IN OTHER NEWS
I got a little, babystep promotion. This means more time Marketing at work.
Marketing is were I am suppose to be. I feel it. It feels right.

There is just something about springtime and music

My sister suggest that I take this personality test, it took about fifteen minutes to take but it's really (almost obnoxiously) spot on. Whether or not this is a good thing or a bad thing, I'm not sure...

My results:

"The sanguine-phlegmatic is an extraverted, optimistic, warm individual who readily connects with others and is well-liked by all. His sanguine side makes him creative, enthusiastic, friendly, and inspiring. His phlegmatic side makes him somewhat cautious at times, and also highly sensitive to other people’s moods, emotions, likes and dislikes. He keenly desires harmony in relationships.

He tends to overextend himself in order to meet others’ needs and to personalize any negative criticism (If the boss says, “We are not meeting our quotas,” the sanguine-phlegmatic thinks, “Is he angry at me?” If her best friend says, “I really can’t wear red lipstick,” the sanguine-phlegmatic will think, “She’s trying to tell me that my lipstick looks terrible!”). After all, the sanguine-phlegmatic has a double-dose of feeling; twice-blessed by the tendency to prioritize relationships and harmony.

If you are a sanguine-phlegmatic, most everyone likes you! You are easy-going, creative, fun-loving, enthusiastic, imaginative, caring, generous, flexible, and spontaneous. You are probably considered “emotional” because of your easily aroused feelings, your attentiveness to relationships, and your tender heart. Your weaknesses are superficiality, indecisiveness, disorganization, and procrastination. Often you find it difficult to know exactly how to state what you mean, or how to express yourself logically; this contributes to a tendency to talk more than is needed or to provide more detail than is necessary. In a relationship, you will likely gravitate toward a logical, organized, strong-willed and decisive partner—someone who makes decisions quickly and provides strong moral certitude and structure to your life. You can be easily influenced (which is exacerbated by your tendency to ask others for advice — without thinking it through) and to do what seems “kind” before considering whether it is objectively right. Many sanguine-phlegmatics are drawn to teaching (and parenting), the helping professions, and volunteer works for the Church or for the welfare of society.

You place a high priority on your personal search for meaning and self-identity. The strong need to discover your “true self” will be met by a rich prayer life and a personal relationship with Christ. Your weaknesses probably tend to bother you more than anyone else. For example, you may find yourself blurting out something without thinking, or spending too much time seeking advice only to find yourself more confused than you started, or oversleeping every day this week — despite all the best of intentions. You may find yourself becoming overcommitted because you simply can’t say “no” and have a strong need to be liked/please people. A typical sanguine-phlegmatic trick is to spend too much money shopping or (better yet) dining out with friends, and then to put off balancing the checkbook (too much work, too many other distractions) until it is hopelessly behind. Now you are overwhelmed with everything that has piled up! You may complain half-heartedly, blame circumstances, or go shopping. . . but you may not really make a concerted effort to change.

The Four Temperaments - http://www.4marks.com/temperaments.html