This has quit possibly been the worse hair year of my life.

I played "Typing for Dummies" yesterday. I chose, "The Steps to Success" or some cheesy title like that and then proceeded to type. And Typing for Dummies proceeded to moke me and remind me why I sucked as an individual. It called me lazy, indirectly of course. Ya know the subtle third party way people address a problem YOU have by applying it to the general population. It told me I had poor time management skills in the same obnoxious fashion. But still, I feel like I've been hit by a bus at the end of my work day and don't know where I'll find the energy to do the Christmas shopping that I must do tonight, in order to rush to Girl Christmas tomorrow right after work. There is this pile of things that I need to do everyday, week, month...and it feels hard. It feels like I never stop. But, you know this because I always complain of this. It's just been weighing on me. I feel like everyone gets half of what they deserve of me. Like, I'm only half of myself which is no where near my best self. In fact, I might even say I'm not even sure how to pretend to be my best self anymore. Sad, sad but true. Stupid Typing for Dummies. Good news is I'm still typing 70+ wpm.

I need a camera. But I don't think I'm getting it for Christmas. I also need the internet at my house. I would update YOU A LOT more if I had internet.

We'll discuss more later! I have a lot to say about myself. About what I've been thinking about. About why I feel like this. Once I get it all on paper I will be able to fix it. It needs to be sorted out.

It all comes down to my priorities not being in order. But, honestly I don't even know what order they are suppose to be in.