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This morning I am tired. The weather has been something of unsual. There's this weird things about having to work all the time and it causes me to underappreciate the seasons. Yesterday was the first day that I actually felt excited about Fall. My excitement was mainly focused around all the football fun that comes with it, which (I'm not gonna lie) was a little weird. Sometimes I worry that we are in the "end times", but I hope that's just fear of God. I was reminded of my worry this morning when I rode into work with my dad who listens to NPR religiously. Someone asked me how David and I were doing, I caught myself saying "we are perfect". It was weird to hear myself say something so extreme and mean it so much. My house needs me to stay home for a day and do nothing but clean, organize and decorate. I'm still working on taking the clutter out of my life. I think that I'm a packrat by default and it takes a lot to realize I need to throw away the old magazines on my bookshelf in my room. It takes even more for me to actually throw them away. I'm also a spender on lots of cheap affordables. I want to be a buyer of worth it valuables. One week until my birthday and I still have no idea what anyone is getting me.  24 seems a lot older than 23.

Until next time, stay beautiful.